Our History & Vision

Our History

"Being feared is what earned you ‘respect’ in my neighborhood."

I grew up in Canarsie, Brooklyn — the kind of neighborhood that inspired the film Goodfellas. To survive there, I trained relentlessly with elite martial artists. In the dojo, respect wasn’t earned through fear — it was earned by facing your fears, together.

But the true masters, they moved differently. Their punches and kicks felt less like strikes and more like a dance. They seemed to operate from a higher state of awareness — like they could see the invisible. I had to understand what that was. Where did it come from? How could I access it?

Then something happened that cracked me open.

Awakenings

One night, drifting off to sleep, I imagined John Lennon seated on a cloud, spinning a globe on his middle finger and singing:

“People say I’m crazy, lost in confusion… I tell them there’s no problem, only solutions... I’m just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round...”

Suddenly, I felt electric. Like I was plugged into a socket, energy flowing through me and into everything around me. In the near dark, I grabbed a pen. Something wrote through me. The next morning, I read it and was floored. The words were mostly foreign — and yet familiar. Like a part of me I didn’t know existed had spoken.

That same year, during peak martial arts training, I began sensing an energy field beyond my hands. Friends could feel it too — I could “push” them without touching. Was it real? Or just in our minds?

Then came the moment that removed all doubt.

A WTF Moment

It was NFL Sunday. My friend Tom and I had just placed bets with our neighborhood bookie and were back at my place, Zeppelin blasting. Tom, who trained with me, asked me to try some of that “energy work” on him.

He lay down. I hovered my hands about a foot above his chest.

After a few minutes:

“It’s burning me!” he screamed, tearing off his shirt and bolting upright.

We both stared, frozen. A three-inch, dark red welt had appeared on his chest — out of nowhere.

What just happened?

That week, Deepak Chopra’s Quantum Healing mysteriously landed on my bookshelf. I was captivated by his exploration of mind-body healing and “meaningful coincidences.” Especially the story of a heart transplant recipient who began having the memories of their donor.

Our thoughts… in our organs?

I was beginning to see a thread connecting everything — but I didn’t know where it was leading yet.

From Injury to Inspiration

Years of training had wrecked my back. I was told I’d live with pain for life — until one chiropractic adjustment changed everything. My spine cracked like lightning, and the pain vanished.

I jumped off the table and said, “Bullshit — I’m going to chiropractic school.”

I tore through a 3-year pre-med track in 18 months and landed at LACC (Los Angeles Chiropractic College), immersed in anatomy and human physiology.

What fascinated me most? Feedback loops.

Every system in the body was self-regulating:

Sympathetic vs. parasympathetic. Hormones vs. antihormones.

Flexion vs. extension.

Yin and Yang.

Balance.

But who — or what — was the invisible referee keeping the score?

Mind Meets Matter

Working nights at Domino’s Pizza, I met a monk who taught me Raja Yoga — the yoga of the mind. By day, I trained the body. By night, I trained the mind. And slowly, I began to experience moments of inner stillness, glimpses of something deeper.

Then came a word that would change my life:

Psychoneuroimmunology.

The science that the psyche affects the nervous system, which in turn affects immunity. Everything was connected. I became obsessed with the role emotions played in disease — and healing.

I walked campus with a Walkman blasting Covey, Peale, Napoleon Hill, Tony Robbins. At home, I'd light candles, stretch on the yoga mat to Enya — and sometimes, cry.

What was happening in my psyche?

Then I found Wayne Dyer. Or he found me. His meditations on Om and Ahum blew my mind. I felt like I’d touched the third rail of consciousness.

And guess who he was touring with? Dr. Deepak Chopra.

Meaningful coincidences? More like destiny.

The Breakthrough: Equilibrium

At a guest speaker event a lanky guy in a flashy suit got onstage. I expected a sales pitch.

Instead, Dr. John Demartini invoked Gottfried Leibnitz, co-creator of calculus, and philosopher of divine order in the universe. From Buddha to Brahma to the Z-Boson particle — he connected the dots of east, west, physics, philosophy, and consciousness.

His unifying principle?

Equilibrium.

From Newton’s third law to emotional pain: everything seeks balance. Our highs will become our lows. And our lows, our highs. The more we cling to fantasies, the harder life hits us with reality.

Equilibrium isn’t about chasing bliss — it’s about seeing both sides of everything.

This wasn’t positive thinking. This was truth.

I dropped out of chiropractic school and worked with Dr. Demartini from 1995 to 2005, traveling the world as his promoter and protégé.

But then, everything changed.

My Dark Night

On January 9, 2005, my mother — Lorraine — died at 56.

She was my rock. My best friend. Her passing shattered me.

I locked myself away in a home in Florida for three weeks — grieving, doubting everything. Could equilibrium make sense of this?

Through tears and desperation, I began to write. I searched for the qualities my mom had given me — nurturing, love, empathy — in the people around me. Slowly, balance emerged.

Then something crazy happened.

At dinner, I met a woman. Her name? Lorraine.

From Brooklyn.

Age 56.

Coffee in one hand. Cigarette in the other.

I whispered to my girlfriend, “Her birthday is January 9th.”

It was.

In that moment something shifted. The veil lifted. I felt connected to everything and everyone around me. Equilibrium wasn’t just a concept — it was real.

ThankGodi & the Rise of Equilibration™

I published my story — Thank God My Mom Died. Others followed. One client wanted to publish Thank God I Was Raped. That’s when I founded:

👉 ThankGodi.com — real-life stories of people who found equilibrium in their deepest challenges.

We worked with first-time authors and New York Times bestsellers. We landed on ABC-TV and appeared in a film with His Holiness the Dalai Lama.

But behind the scenes, running a publishing company was hell. Logistics, tech disruption, financial pressure — kamikaze chaos. Still, the mission survived.

In 2024, ThankGodi continues to help people discover the other side of life’s hardest moments.

The Road to Equilibration™

The biggest battle we face isn’t “out there.” It’s inside.

A tug-of-war between our intuition and our emotions.

Addicted to fantasies, fear, identity, and predictability — we often ignore the very intuition that could lead us home.

That’s why I coined and trademarked:

Equilibration™ – martial arts for the mind.

I spent years refining this method — helping people balance emotional charges and return to a place of inner clarity, resilience, and truth.

Equilibration™ is the key to inner freedom.

The Future of Equilibrium

When COVID hit, I saw the signs: fear-based narratives, manipulation, censorship. I knew we were entering a new era — a war for our consciousness. AI, machine learning, quantum computing — all powerful tools in the wrong hands. But they can also be reclaimed.

That’s why I’ve partnered with top developers in India, Dubai, and the U.K. to bring Equilibration™ into the future.

We’re building:

Apps

Games

Courses

Articles

Events

Films

A full mind-body wellness system

We’re here to repurpose technology for truth, and build tools that help future generations find equilibrium within themselves — and the world.

In Gratitude

That’s why I’ve partnered with top developers in India, Dubai, and the U.K. to bring Equilibration™ into the future.

We’re building: